2months to go before my son comes out :)

yeah! got my new hair do.

I MADE IT! The BANGS that i always wanted to have. :)

Ngaun lang bumagay sa akin :)

So, kailangan ko pala takpan nuo ko para masabihan ako ng asawa ko na MAGANDA :)))

anyway...yes, we're just waiting for the nxt 2months and getting ready for our lil warrior to come out really soon. Not yet done with shopping for his clothes and im still stress for the hosp bills. so hard if you dnt have anything to save. so much heavy expenses this june.

yes im quite enjoying taking self portait :)) its seasonal for a pregnant to have decent and fresh look unlike those preggy also bearing a baby boy...theyve got swollen faces even in their early stage. I am that lucky to have blooming face:P

[6-17-12]

[PHOTO TAKEN WHEN I WAS WAITING FOR MY CINDERELLO

TO COME HOME FROM HIS AGENDA]

my hair :P

lol. hippie :P

icon shot :))

Whenever my daughter saw me doing this to her ...

she will always tells me "BA MOM!" means BAD MOMMY daw :)))

cried. because someone ruined my day.

He brought some hot choco and dunkin donuts for SUHOL :))))))

lambing ng onte. tapos un na.MAKE LOVE :)

[6-20-12]

:)

Are You Ready To Change Your Life? 10 Ways to Know For Sure

Are You Ready To Change Your Life?
10 Ways to Know For Sure


1. You’re tired.
This isn’t just a sleepy feeling when you lay down for bed at night, but an ongoing sense of tiredness throughout the day. It’s as if no matter how much sleep you actually get, your reserve energy to face the day is always low or missing.

2. You’re frustrated.
You want the feeling of unsettledness to go away so you can just “show up” and do what needs to be done. When other people don’t do their part, or prevent you from doing yours, you grow even more frustrated by the situation. You may even fail to understand why it bothers you so much.

3. You’re stressed.
Not just stressed, but over-stressed. You can be fine, doing your thing at home or work, and then something goes slightly wrong. And you find yourself going from fine to extremely stressed in an instant. This is over-stressed, when you teeter on the edge between fine and not fine.

4. You’re desperate.
You just want it to work without anything having to change. You think to yourself, “if only such and such would do this then everything would be fine.” All of your focus is placed on altering the external circumstances around you instead of the actions you could take to make things different.

5. You’re full of regret.
You have a negative internal dialogue that reminds you far too often of all the past mistakes, failures, and moments where you didn’t quite accomplish what you set out to do.

6. You’re ashamed.
You don’t want the world to really see you. You don’t challenge yourself to step out from the crowd because then they can see the failure within.

7. You’re resentful.
You just want it to be different. If only everybody else would cooperate with the plan, then the standing still plan would work. Why won’t they just do their part?

8. You’re doubtful.
Deep inside, you know that standing still isn’t the answer. You know that you have to do something, to begin listening to the whispers that well up within your heart. But you don’t think you have what it takes to change. You don’t know what the answer is for what actually needs to change.

9. You’re fearful.
You’re scared. You may fail, you may end up worse off than you are. After all, life isn’t all that bad. You’ve got good things and good people—there are happy parts. Why then are the bad parts still so overwhelming?

10. You’re looking for an escape plan.
Perhaps if you just packed up and moved to a new city. Then things would be different for you. You could start over, no one would know your past history here.

The Secret to Creating Change:

It’s not a matter of luck, location or circumstance. You’ve probably already heard it many times before. The secret to actually creating change in your life is by taking action—doing one small thing today that is different than it was yesterday. But knowing this secret only gets you so far on the path to change.

The other key to finding success in this process is about support. We are born and die alone, but we are not meant to experience life alone. The greatest gift of our human existence is that it is a journey destined to be shared with others.

We are taught from a young age to compete, to be untrusting, to be wary of the person standing next to us because we may not measure up. We are raised in a society based in perfection—never show your weaknesses, never be vulnerable.

But we are weak, vulnerable and frail—we are human. We need the ongoing support of others to lift us up when we are weak, to strengthen us when we feel frail.

Written by Stephanie Wetzel, 

When your child has a fever : ALARMING

My daughter has a fever again. 37.7C

My hubby and i brought Ekai to her Pedia in her 2nd day of fever (38C)...but Dr. Henson said its just a viral infection. She just gave us Rx in case ekai will continue to be sick and have cough. 

But how stupid i was and i didnt asked if what cases ill be coming back. What if Ekai is not really fine. :(

When you're a mother you tend to be OC with things because its your child and you want the best for them. Watching Ekai cries whenever we force her to drink milk is like a bullet in my head :( She is also constipated and has poor appetite. :( I dont know what to do, esp. Ekai is not matamlay at all. She is still bibo and could dance even in her high fever. Diba mas alarming un? or im just being OA na. :(

This is so stressing for me. :(

You know how hard it is for me being pregnant. :( 


Waking up in the middle of the night because Ekai is crying...the trauma in my tummy because it is always abrupt. 


Seeing your husband so irritated because he has gone no sleep at all and he has work pa :( 
I hate seeing him that way :( I feel that its unfair but at the same time feel sorry for him. :( I can't help myself to depend on him. I feel restless. 

I NEED A YAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. %$#@&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we waited for a month and then "ate wala ako nahanap e"

damn. :(((((

im hoping Ekai will be fine soon.

and may dumating na yaya na :((((

hindi ko na kaya laki ng tyan ko :(

TELL ME IM UGLY : 22 weeks for my 2nd child

Humbly speaking, I am 22 weeks and turning 6months on the 15th. I'm gaining so much weight for this month >.< I know i have and need to be on a diet, but circumstances came and FOOD is only my stress reliever.


Last few weeks i had a heavy and severe tummy cramps. I know im a hard headed preggy as my OB says. I always want to go out and walk and walk and walk. With these kind of weather,i rather choose to be on a mall rather to stay at home, because the heat is like hell. Obviously, its more difficult for me because im pregnant. But some people are so insensitive with my situation. Well anyway, I dont care much bout' them. They're too ignorant! for me to explain my side and blah blah blah...

I had my long walks for tiangges and divi place for my daughter's first birthday. My legs were swelling like hell, my hips were so painful, in the night i couldnt move even when im trying to take some side or two. My tummy was so hard then "bunso" will make likot then "hard" then likot again plus the heat. =(


With my first child, i didnt experience this all!!!!!!!!!!! I had a hard time to make sweat even with long walks. I felt too cold pa nga and i could easily and enjoy my bed everynight then. But with my 2nd child. 40 weeks is PARUSA :( Im just in the half palang!!!! 


I feel thankful and sorry at the same time for my hubby because he cant complete his sleep because of my sleepless night. But nevertheless I'm blessed of having him as my husband. He is more patient and understanding now:) Even though we have diff. setup right now that he'll be sleeping at their "barracks" and go home for his dayoff only. But with that kind of sacrifices, we feel much better as a couple. We misses each other, we share lots of things everyday because we are a bit far. When he goes home, We have much better savings done before.


I KNOW PEOPLE WILL AND NEVER UNDERSTAND OUR SETUP. Pero for me ha, ill choose to have this kind of thing, rather to depend on somebodyelse. Im not bragging with things, but as i can see, we're growing together as a couple. We feel more matured as a parents even if we still dont have our own house yet.


Now, we always talk. Unlike before na he'll go to sleep early para makaiwas sa discussion. I hope people will just be happy for us. This relationship will never grow if we will not move forward for our children's future. Hindi lang naman kami yung nakakaexperience ng ganito right? Millions of families around the world experiences more difficulties and sacrifices, esp. parents who are so willing to give everything for their children.
(WOW, NICE IDEA FOR MY NEXT BLOG. ILL KEEP YOU POSTED)


ANYWAY

WE'RE just hoping and praying that this time ITS A BOY :)
TELL ME IM UGLY! :))


on the 18th :) ill have my next ultrasound for congenital screening.
ill be requesting the attending Ob to tell the gender already.
Last time, we waited for my 4d ultrasound, but this time WE COULDN'T WAIT! :)
*crossfingers*

5MONTHS PREGNANT

YEAH! im turning 5 this tuesday and time flies so fast >.< i can't believe it that im just waiting for 4months to have my 2nd child. Im a bit worried and excited at the same time. But then again, lots of trials along the way.

I have my tummy cramps and "paninigas" two consecutive days and thats alarming, kaso i cant have the REST that i need kase nga I DONT HAVE YAYA yet =( IM SO NGARAG EVERYDAY!!!! i cant complain naman... >.<

kainis nga e..nauudlot parati. But im thanking God, for being our guidance in choosing the right yaya for Ekai. Buti nalang when bad things happened to the yaya, wala pa sya sa house namin. Not being mean, pero like the RECENT YAYA na dapat sa amin, biglang nagpakasal. :)))) Hayyy. LIFE :))) 

IM ALWAYS LOOK HAGGARD!!!!!!!!!!!!

KAYA NEED SOME MAKEOVER :)))

i have a semi swollen legs!!!!!!

LET GO

Being an only child is difficult. But I've learned to earn the "world" that i wanted to have whenever im w/ my friends. When i was still in school, i really love going to classes because im surrounded by people. It was much better with older friends, since they're more matured.Then i got bored and explored outside the campus.


I've been through with lots of "rebellious deeds" or whatever people may call it but for me its LOOKING FOR MY IDENTITY.LOOKING FOR MY TRUESELF. Dealing with people is like teaching your self to accept CHANGES and that makes you a better person.


NOSTALGIC.
I remember those days i have bunch of friends to talk with. Whenever you go online or in text they are all active. Whenever YOU feel lonely, they were all there for you. DRINK AND SMOKE.

But as the time goes by, you'll notice of number of GOODBYES AND HEARTACHES. People dont like you or some of your friends left you and join to another group. Ofcourse, i feel bad because THEY ARE MY WORLD and now its falling apart.

This year im turning 23, and that BREAKS my heart. Im getting older but seems like im now counting fingers with friends who are real and stick with me no matter what.

When i went back to reconcile with THOSE people, theyre all gone. Having those allibis and excuses. But im still waiting for someone to reply on my msgs. JUST GIVE ME CLOSURE.

NOW.
you just have to convince yourself that your older enough to understand that situation. That no one will be permanent in your life. That i must be thankful that i have now my own family and in return losing friends. I dont know the real score why they left. All i know is IVE BEEN A BAD FRIEND. Not to turn myself down but to ACCEPT THE FACT that its REALITY. Maybe im not a good keeper.

Some are now in there stable life right now and im proud of them.

I just have to stick to what  i have right now and to be contented.

SIGHS

HOLY THURSDAY AND EX PRES. ARROYO

(APRIL 05, 2012)LATE POST

I know my subject for my blog today is crucial and i might end up in jail or whatsoever but i would like to share with you my experience during Holy Thursday Mass. We were just in time for the mass ...when the crowd in the chapel sounded like a bee,buzzing "nandyan na si Gloria".

I thought ill be just fine having her at my back. IT WAS SO RESTLESS. I was not comfortable and worried bout my daughter that she might have tantrums and Gloria might get mad because of the noise.

And the mass begun, and i was right. Ekai got to her temper and been irritated. Luckily , my hubby was there to carry my daughter.

Ekai loves to stand up on our sit and look back. I'm like "beb,baka magbato si ekai ng doll nya"..."beb move forward naka kneeldown siya(MR. ARROYO). Ekai was yelling because of boredom and wanted to go and forth.

The good part there was, she so charming and smiling to Gloria and to her granddaughter. She just wanted to get everybody's attention :)



Sigh. It was so difficult yet ME AND MY HUSBAND SURVIVED. :))

I just wanted to laugh out of my weirdness being mom. And its not easy to discipline your child. But it was a good experience for me. 

LESSON LEARNED.




WASHING OF THE FEET (the priest kissed my father's foot)

*i dont have photos of HER,because it's not allowed by the police escorts*