LET GO

Being an only child is difficult. But I've learned to earn the "world" that i wanted to have whenever im w/ my friends. When i was still in school, i really love going to classes because im surrounded by people. It was much better with older friends, since they're more matured.Then i got bored and explored outside the campus.


I've been through with lots of "rebellious deeds" or whatever people may call it but for me its LOOKING FOR MY IDENTITY.LOOKING FOR MY TRUESELF. Dealing with people is like teaching your self to accept CHANGES and that makes you a better person.


NOSTALGIC.
I remember those days i have bunch of friends to talk with. Whenever you go online or in text they are all active. Whenever YOU feel lonely, they were all there for you. DRINK AND SMOKE.

But as the time goes by, you'll notice of number of GOODBYES AND HEARTACHES. People dont like you or some of your friends left you and join to another group. Ofcourse, i feel bad because THEY ARE MY WORLD and now its falling apart.

This year im turning 23, and that BREAKS my heart. Im getting older but seems like im now counting fingers with friends who are real and stick with me no matter what.

When i went back to reconcile with THOSE people, theyre all gone. Having those allibis and excuses. But im still waiting for someone to reply on my msgs. JUST GIVE ME CLOSURE.

NOW.
you just have to convince yourself that your older enough to understand that situation. That no one will be permanent in your life. That i must be thankful that i have now my own family and in return losing friends. I dont know the real score why they left. All i know is IVE BEEN A BAD FRIEND. Not to turn myself down but to ACCEPT THE FACT that its REALITY. Maybe im not a good keeper.

Some are now in there stable life right now and im proud of them.

I just have to stick to what  i have right now and to be contented.

SIGHS